Wow. I haven’t blogged since July of 2010. That was last year, people! Where the fuck have I been?! Well, some of you know and some of you don’t. I guess I’ll have to post a little somethin’ somethin’ to make sure everyone is up to speed on what is going on in Aprilverse.
I lost my 7 1/2 year “day job” in July. It was a nowhere job that wasn’t even in my interests and I only worked it to have a steady paycheck and health insurance. I won’t go into details about how I lost my job, but let’s just say that I didn’t deserve it and I hope no one ever has to go through what I did. I immediately lost my health insurance and to this day I don’t have coverage. I keep my fingers crossed every single day that I won’t get seriously hurt. Why? Because…
I’ve had a lot of health problems and accidents over the past 8+ years, including but not limited to, a herniated disc in my lower back with a side of sciatica from a car accident (I got rear-ended… you can stop laughing now), a tumor the size of a golf ball on my thyroid that caused me to gain over 100 pounds, bouts of depression & agoraphobia, a broken ankle that forced me to learn how to walk again, double pneumonia TWICE, and numerous little ailments, some stemming from pre-existing injuries. I seriously need to be careful, eh?
One week after losing my job, someone decided to report this lil’ ol’ blog to my hosting company. What did I do wrong? I had music on my server. Copyrighted music. That I used a plugin to share that didn’t even allow people to download the tracks… only listen to them. I even provided links to download the music from iTunes or Amazon. How audacious of me! I must have been a terrible person for sharing music, right?! I mean, I can understand if it was the RIAA, but according to my hosting company, it wasn’t. It was a random fucking person, who I like to call ‘Captain RIAA’. Who takes it upon themselves to report someone when they have nothing to gain? An asshole, that’s who. I had to wipe all of the music from my server so I didn’t get my site shut down, causing all of my posts embedded with music to stop working unless they contained mashups, Creative Commons, or were embeddable mixtapes from 8tracks.com. If you were wondering why most of the music on my site wouldn’t stream, now you know. I still need to fix this. *le sigh*
As a music lover, hearing is the most important sense to me. I can’t imagine a life without music. I live and breathe music. If I had to choose between any of my five senses to keep forever and forgo all others, hearing would be my immediate response. I could live without sight, for I was lucky to be born with it and I already know what so many things look like. The sense of touch, while pleasurable in so many ways, still doesn’t top a life without hearing. The sense of taste is another sense that I wouldn’t want to lose, but at the end of the day, tasting food isn’t a priority on my list. Perhaps it would be if I was a chef. Losing my sense of smell would have some disadvantages, but I just can’t say that it’s more special than my hearing.
Every day we listen to so many things and we take a lot of them for granted. Imagine never being able to hear the voice of your children. Imagine never hearing someone telling you that they love you. Imagine never hearing the sound of rain, or the other beautiful sounds of nature. Now imagine never being able to listen to music. I shudder at the thought.
I couldn’t even begin to think of all the songs that I’ve heard through my 30 years on this earth. A lot of music has gotten me through a lot of hard times; Songs that made me jump up and dance, heal my broken heart, and songs that inspired me. If it wasn’t for my sense of hearing, I don’t know if I would even be the same person I am today.
My twenties sucked. Hard. I’m not complaining because whatever happened, happened. (Nod to my fellow Losties out there.) I’m merely bringing this up since I recently turned thirty and entering this new decade of my life, I feel like I have a chance to do a lot of things I should have done or have been meaning to put off, but I finally have the maturity and experience to deal with it and I feel the most confident in myself than I have ever been.
I AM ME
For once I can say that I know who I am as a person. I am okay with my faults because they are a part of me. What you see is what you get. I wear my heart on my sleeve and make no apologies for it. I like writing AND designing, and I don’t feel the need to only do one or the other. I CAN have my cake and eat it, too. It took me a long time to get to this place. My whole life, I’ve always doubted myself. I’m my own worst critic and rather than appreciating what I do, I would compare myself with the people I was surrounded by, the people I looked up to.
Ever have one of those days where everything seems to be going wrong? I’ve been going through a bit of that this week. I suffer from TMJ pain and I somehow strained a muscle by my jaw, causing the right side of my face to swell. I could barely move my jaw at all, and I was getting nerve pain sent up the side of my face to my head.
After a visit to the hospital to find out what was going on, in case my jaw locked open or shut, I was given anti-inflammatory medicine as well as painkillers with orders to rest until I could eat solid food again and talk without being in pain. I’ll be posting as soon as I’m feeling better. Until then, rock on!
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Wishing a Happy New Year from me to you. May 2010 bring you all the happiness you deserve. The past is behind us and the possibilities of the future are endless.
The best thing about New Year’s is that we all get to start over. Make the most of it. Besides, 2009 was so last year.
Auld Lang Syne by Mairi Campbell and Dave Francis (my favorite version)
My name is April and I’m an addict. My drug of choice is music. Just saying the word music makes my stomach feel all tingly like I have butterflies in there. From the time I wake up in the morning, to the time I go to sleep, I live for music. I can always be found listening to something new I found or a classic that is timeless. It all sounds the same to me and I just can’t help swayin’ to the groove.
I think my love affair with music started when I was a young child. I was born in 1980, back when MTV was still a fledgling network and didn’t have us begging for our MTV quite yet. 1980 was a sad year for music lovers everywhere, as John Lennon was assassinated in December of that year. I don’t remember that, but when I think about how much he brought to the world with his music and words of peace and love that I can only imagine the pain of losing someone so special. I only have John’s music to listen to but it fills me with a sense of him, as if listening to his music keeps him alive and makes me feel a personal connection with him. I’d like to think that anyways.
So I decided to redo my site. I wanted to stick with a lot of whitespace, but other than that, I couldn’t find a theme I really liked. I liked different elements of themes, but they didn’t all combine into one which is what I wanted. So what is a girl to do? Make a mashup of themes, of course!
I started with the original Arthemia theme, and I stripped everything down so there was lots of whitespace. I removed the top featured areas because, let’s face it, I don’t need them. I did want to keep the category bar on the top, but I hated the search area, so I decided to use The Morning After‘s search and navigation area from their theme and implement it in the header here. I did like the Arthemia Premium‘s option on the bottom to have randomized posts so I added the scripts from the theme to this theme as well. I also upgraded Arthemia’s comment section to have threaded comments, and I did some other minor touch-ups throughout.
I’m really happy with how everything turned out and I love having all my white space with images and easy navigation. I hope you all love it as much as I do.
I recently joined forces with KillerFilm.com to write movie soundtrack reviews and my first one is up! I chose to do Watchmen. I included a playlist of the soundtracks along with a few tracks that didn’t make the cut, as well as the music video for My Chemical Romance’s cover of Bob Dylan’s Desolation Row.
I’d love for you to read the review here and comment if you like!
I’ve been super busy this past week and if you’ve been here before, you’ll notice that the site had an update. If you haven’t, I hope you like the new layout. I also desperately need to update my Linky Love page, so I will be doing that as well. If you would like to link exchange, please email me at OneLuvGurl [at] gmail [dot] com and be sure to include the link to your site and a short description.
If you’ve emailed me in the past week regarding ANYTHING, including posting music on this site, I am going to get back to you in the next couple days.
I hope you all had a great weekend and hopefully I will be seeing you very soon! Cheers!